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thats right! i realized i could blog from my phone... crazy!!! anyway, ive been feeling like garbage tbh. mentally im okay but physically i feel so sick. this used to be a bad day for me, but now it seems every day is a bad day. because why not. my body HATES ME!!! and i havent been able to hang out with my friends in months. i just want to be normal... :(

i still havent processed the fact that i graduated. i mean, every adult in my life told me i was not going to graduate on time, ever. i was told i was lazy. i was convinced id never make it. but not only did i make it, but i graduated EARLY. MONTHS early, to be precise. despite my declining health, i made it. and im still so proud of myself. me, the girl who was destined to fail from birth. ive been screwed since day one, but ill never let that stop me. (unless im in a flare up lol)

also, i most likely have lupus. if not, regardless, i do have some unidentified systemic autoimmune disease. and my antibodies from my connective tissue had a speckled pattern? i wonder how they find that in blood. super interesting stuff. also makes sense with my history of connective tissue complications... (hypermobility, dislocations, etc)

<-- me rn